Life After University- Feeling Purposeless?!

The beginning

I don’t want to use the D word loosely when I describe what life after university can be like. I will say that, I went through some dark periods where I felt down and didn’t want to get out of bed or do anything at all. I felt lost and lonely.

I graduated in 2015 and thought that this was just the beginning. The beginning of a brand-new chapter with endless opportunities. Soon after graduation I did quite a few work experiences (unpaid) of course. You know you’ve done a lot of work experience when you got to drop some of your CV. I learnt something significant from each one. (I even lived in Spain for a month). With every roller coaster ride, it must come to an end but for some reason mine kept going with more loops than I could understand.

Letting God in

Now, I surely cannot be the only one who has tried to go at it alone. You think you can map out your whole life and avoid those hitches. Does this work? In the words of the Kyles ehhhhh Nah. Y’all, listen up. We need to let God in. We NEED to have him in our plan or else you are going to go around and around in those loops.

God what is it that you want from me? Lead me to the path that I should take.

It can be frustrating not knowing what your purpose/talent is. Joseph knew his purpose. He received his calling in a dream. (Gen 37: 7). Some can argue that it can be even more frustrating to know your purpose but not see it pan out. Instead of giving up, he kept faith and enjoyed every season the Lord put him in. Joseph had this dream at the age of 17 and wasn’t appointed until 33. Do you know what kind of faith that takes?! And how many seasons he would have gone through. He used his talents where he could and that’s what I learnt to do.

Fellowship & Seasons

Now that I was learning to enjoy every season that I had, everything seemed to be going a lot smoother. I began to fellowship with my friends. And you know what’s crazy? They were going through similar things too. God places certain people in your life for a reason. We have become so much closer in Christ! We now regularly meet and I learn a whole lot more about this Christian walk of mine. I feel like where I am right now is exactly where I am supposed to be.

Happiness at rejection

How can happiness AND rejection in the same sentence be a good thing? Well it happened.

So I need you to remember how I’m now this “reformed” individual who has learnt to enjoy each season and whatever path God leads me.

Anyway, I receive a call with the outcome of a job interview. You guessed it …another rejection. Before this call I was feeling all happy and content, saying to myself I have moved past the upset stage. Even if I get a job or not. This is me obviously saying this BEFORE I received the call. Anyway the real test came after.

Before I get to this I will say to you, I have NEVER received such positive feedback from a rejection call in my life. The woman had nothing but positive things to say about me and how I was an excellent candidate and how I literally just missed out on the position.

I was so taken aback by how much she was praising me. It honestly seemed like someone was paying her to say these things. This was the work of God. After the call I ran to tell my mom the ‘good’ news. I just remember her looking at me and asking me “ are you not upset?” I simply said “ no, God is a good God”.

I have truly come a long way. I remember how I used to be upset even for a job I had no business doing. (You know them times where you apply for eerrrrthang with minimum to no experience.

Also side note- One interviewer said she had seen my blogs/ vlogs and loved them so much. I had thought about giving this a rest but she inspired me to carry on!. Again. God is good.

A new beginning

So where from here?, Well I am going to take every day as it comes and spend more time with God and fellow-ship. I KNOW I need to work on my Christian walk a lot more. I want to know that when I do start doing the career that the Lord wants me to do, it will be done correctly and for his will.

For more of my journey story check out my video above!